Zion’s Saving Grace

This book is comprised of my deepest thoughts and feelings while going through a journey of grief to grace. My heart cries are in the form of Facebook posts and journal entries. I believe that God has called me to be a voice for the voiceless, and expressing my grief helps with the healing process. This book is for people who are experiencing, have experienced, or will experience navigating life in the NICU with a sick child and/or has ever lost a child. It is also for those who have lost a child or loved one, and you are wondering if you will ever smile again. Feeling the emptiness of a broken family, feeling the hopelessness of your child fighting for their life, or experiencing the greatest fear a parent could ever face, can leave you hopeless. It is such a dark, helpless, and lonely place, physically, spiritually, and emotionally. This book is for the hurting. This small book is full of heartbreak, triumph, joy, sadness, faith, and raw emotion. This book challenges the modern ideology of Christianity that says, “Have it all together and don’t be vulnerable”.

This book is for those who are afraid to express their true feelings and fears. It is my hope that the bravery of this book will empower others to become real about where they are spiritually and emotionally. This book is to challenge us to be real in our relationship with God and to bring things to Him as raw as we can without all the pressure of feeling as if we have to have it all together. The Bible says that we can come to God in Spirit and in Truth. Out of truth, God births deliverance, and through deliverance comes freedom. When I began to be truthful and honest with God and others around me, my breakthrough began. My freedom came through worship.

I pray this book speaks to someone who feels like they have to hide their pain from others because they are afraid of being judged or condemned. My healing came and continues to come through the raw expression of my pain. I express it through singing, writing, crying, which are all forms of worship. It was not until I was completely real and raw with God about how I felt, that He was able to begin the work of healing my broken heart and setting me free from depression. This book is exposes the darkest time of my life. It is a look into the journey of my baby boy, Zion Kennaniah Moore. Let his fight, his endurance, his strength, and his life encourage you and become a source of hope in the midst of darkness. Let Zion’s life reveal how God can get the glory out of any situation and any dark place. Zion means “dry place”, “highest point”, “City of God”, and “Heaven”. Kennaniah means, “Established by God”. Zion’s journey reveals God’s glory in the midst of the dry place and produces the faith that ultimately gets us the highest point, which is Heaven, which is established by God.

He is turning my sadness into joy daily. I am on the journey of redefining who God is to me. He is turning my Grief into a story of Grace. Let the journey begin.

“After Nathan had gone home, the Lord struck the child that Uriah’s wife had borne to David, and he became ill. David pleaded with God for the child. He fasted and spent the nights lying in sackcloth on the ground. The elders of his household stood beside him to get him up from the ground, but he refused, and he would not eat any food with them. On the seventh day the child died. David’s attendants were afraid to tell him that the child was dead, for they thought, “While the child was still living, he wouldn’t listen to us when we spoke to him. How can we now tell him the child is dead? He may do something desperate. David noticed that his attendants were whispering among themselves, and he realized the child was dead. “Is the child dead?” he asked. “Yes,” they replied, “he is dead.” Then David got up from the ground. After he had washed, put on lotions and changed his clothes, he went into the house of the Lord and worshiped.” 2 Samuel 12: 15-20