I Was Never Enough for You
One day he asked me to kneel down at his feet.
I was becoming too tall and too strong for him.
In order for us to work, I had to walk in and
staying there until it was time to leave.
I wanted him more than I needed to feel my worth.
Later on, he walked over while I was kneeling to
straddle my back, demanding to be carried.
When I objected, he explained that
this was only one step past kneeling,
and we weren’t going very far.
I attempted to stand, bearing his weight on my back
and gathering my strength to lift us to a standing position.
He strangled my neck to maintain his balance.
I managed enough strength to carry us both for a brief moment.
The weight of his body began to crumble mine.
As I stumbled back down to my knees,
he chastised me, saying I had failed him,
claiming I wasn’t there for him when he needed me.
He said I wasn’t enough.
So I reduced myself even further,
lying facedown on the floor,
where he gladly used me as his doormat.
You Reminded Me of a Love I Once Knew
In those years, we remained strangers,
you, knowing much less about me
than I truly knew about you,
freely giving my energy for your consumption
while you yanked yours away.
as a result of losing you,
precipitating my spiral to rock bottom,
realizing what I would do
when I had absolutely no one to turn to.
So when I saw you, pudgy as before,
I realized it wasn’t you I fell for;
it was the remnants of him.
I’m Waiting for You to Want Me Like I Want You
Years ago, when we met,
I would have dropped it all to be with you.
Today, if you asked,
I would do it with no question.