Love Filled

9 months in her belly and now I have a name. Ten fingers and ten toes, a nose! A heart and a brain. See now I have a body to move around this place. I can only hear her voice right now but soon I’ll see her face. The day had finally come and I was ready to proceed. On this brand-new, big adventure to give my soul just what it needs. New experiences to endure and to find a new direction. Pieces of my soul tribe to help me see my true reflection. As I made my decent out of my mother’s body, a voice inside came clear to me, “I am very sorry. There is one thing you need to know before I let you dive right in. Although you will never be alone, as you grow, you will cling tightly to your skin. Humans tend to forget who they are where they started. Remember we are all connected energy that can never be parted. It is up to you to try and never let that go. And if you do remember than to others you must show.” It all happened so fast. The words in my head chiming. The moment had come at last. Bright, white light, screaming and crying. So many feelings, warm blanket, warm chest and then I saw her big blue eyes shining. The connection I felt between our two hearts felt like perfect timing. Time went on, I learned a lot about how to crawl and walk and play. I even got to be with my mom almost every day. The years flew by like days. Expectations became more consuming. Between school and friends, feelings and homework, I could feel a disconnection brewing. I had forgotten about purpose or why we are here on this earth. Things got so hard at times, I felt so bad, I would even question my worth. Soon I had lost the memory. Lost the feeling in my heart. Passed the physical I could not see. Too scared to try to start. From this place I once called home, I felt so far apart. I did not see it coming, there was anger in my heart. A bright light I could feel deep inside of my body being covered up. Like mud upon a lantern or dirt on a glass cup. I had lost my way. Sadness was all I could feel. It consumed my daily thoughts. I wondered, “Was this really real”? Until one day my mom walked in my room after a big fight. She asked why I was so mad. This happens almost every night. She wiped away my tears that had fallen down my face. Her voice became a whisper, “No one could ever take your place.” Her arms stretched wide engulfed me until the sadness was all gone. She said, “I’m going to show you the answers have been inside you all along. Some things you need to know and carry with you every day. Words of wisdom that will help you along the way.” “Nature is the purest form of love. Make connections with the plants, the flowers and the clouds high up above. Love is the highest frequency we can feel. Always give thanks and show gratitude. You have knees to help you kneel. No matter how far off the path you may wander, you are never too far to heal. The space between the bones and breath shows us what’s really real.” The next morning, I woke up and hopped right out of bed. I had a dream, a voice it spoke to me. But I could not remember what it had said. The sun was shining so bright outside, so I went and sat in the grass. The words my mom had said to me, came back to my mind so fast. Laying there on the ground with the dirt upon my toes. The sun was up in the sky and flowers blooming stacked in rows. I lay there for a moment, took a deep breath and closed my eyes. I felt the grass between my fingers. I heard the birds up in the sky. I cleared my mind a minute and released thoughts floating in my head. I let out my breath so softly and let my feelings go where they were led.